Father's Day 2012

"There's a rainbow always after the rain... " as the hit song Rainbow popularized by South Border goes. 

I could not believe that it has already been over 3 months since Dad left us. My family went through our darkest moments when we lost our father. I shared that story HERE. Through God's abundant grace and blessings, I can say that we are all moving on and living our lives again. I know for sure that Dad will be proud of us now, wherever he may be. We are now able to smile and live our lives back. We're all helping each other to be better and live better.

This year is the first Father's Day that we celebrated without Dad physically. My family went to the cemetery to celebrate it there in memory of him. We offered a glass of cold Coke that Dad used to crave a lot when he still lived. Since he was actually prohibited to drink sodas because he's diabetic, we'd just sometimes give him a small sip of soda or  a  little bite of some sweet desserts. Then, he'd exclaim, "Labis labis ang saraaap!" (Extremely deliciouuuus! =p )

Oh how I miss those special moments with Dad!

Loveliest Mom In the Whole Wide World

Had I gathered the courage to write my comeback post about Dad at an earlier time, I would've written this and posted it in time for the Mother's Day over a week ago. But I always believe in perfect timing. And I also thought, it should not be just on Mother's Days that we should let our mothers feel special so I'm still sharing you this post anyway.
Being a mother, as all mothers I know say, is a 24/7 profession. Writing this post can only be one of the simplest ways for me to share to everyone how much I love, appreciate and proud I am of my Mommy Whelma.
The past months have been the hardest moments that we had as a family. I admire mom so much for being strong. I myself get my strength from her. Even though we're on rough roads, she remains to have a positive outlook in life. I see her as a bright sunshine that gives everyone love and care though she is also hurting. I think this roots from her strong faith with God. After what happened, she still managed to be active in church activities. She was just recently re-elected as Cavite Diocesan President of Catholic Women's League (CWL). Her being a leader to her fellow sisters in Christ has always become an inspiration to me. I always tell my mom that she is my Idol! I look up to her so much that I try and do my best to do things that I know will make her proud of me.
My love for makeups definitely came from mom. She's the kind of person who makes sure that she will always look her best no matter what, effortlessly.

You will forever be missed, dad!

February 28, 2012. A little past 7pm. I woke up from being asleep for at least 4hrs. I was too uncomfortable to get a sleep the night before and stayed up till morning and even after lunch when I finally got tired from not sleeping. 
Midnight of the 28th. Dad was not in good condition. He was having a difficulty in breathing so he'd need to get up, try to sit at the side of his and mom's bed to be able to breathe but he's too weak to get up himself.  Agold (my younger sister) and I would need to help carry him to support himself and sit.  He had a fever and he would throw up and spit blood. There were moments when my sister and I would take turns in helping dad to get up. It always felt terrible seeing Dad in that state. It was always disheartening. 
I was also doing some layouts and editing some things that midnight in my room. So if ever I hear Dad calling, I would go and run to their room. But later, I thought Dad got to sleep so I let myself get hooked with more and more things on my computer. Watching makeup and hair tutorials...reading reviews and blogs. 
Till later, the sun came up shining... and I was not yet asleep. I heard mom preparing to go to the hospital for Dad's regular dialysis session since it was a Tuesday. I went out my room and saw Dad on his wheel chair. His eyes were closed. I know he was asleep but he still looked very very tired. I'm sure he also wasn't able to sleep that same night. They went to the hospital and I went back to my computer to do more work...editing and talking to clients. 
Then I fell asleep and woke up with a number of missed calls from some of my siblings. Waking up to that felt uneasy. But then I noticed I wasn't able to turn off my computer. I noticed the time was 7:19pm. I checked a few emails and still managed to reply to some clients. Then I went to mom and dad's room and they still weren't home. Dad's dialysis would usually take 4hrs. They should have been home by then since they left in the morning. I asked our kasambahay where they were and she told me that Dad needed to be admitted to the hospital. She said Agold went there too a few moments ago to bring clothes.